It's not God's will that you should take your own life, no matter how hard it is in life.God always has a plan for us.
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future".Jeremiah 29:11
God's plans for our future are great even though it doesn't look like that right now. God is not the author of suffering.The Devil is, and he tries to point out to God, hence why we blame God for our sorrows.Yet we should rightly blame the devil for all the suffering this world has ever seen and turn to Jesus.He is the giver of life and the true Lord and God. All of the other Gods are the work of men.Jesus showed he loved this world by dying on the cross for our sins.No other man has ever done that! That is true love. Jesus is more than ready to help us in all circumstances, you just need to call upon him and ask him for help. The reason many don't get help is because they don't ask. God says: "Call unto me, and I will answer thee, and shew thee great and mighty things, which thou knowest not." Jeremiah 33:3
On the other hand, if you believe in a religion or a God that tells to suicide yourself and kill others for the benefit of God and yourself rest assured you have been deceived! There is no better life on the other side for suicide bombers, God is not in the business of killing people but saving people.He sent his son Jesus, to save the world, not to condemn it! God needs no protection from his "enemies" he can protect himself, He is God all by himself.
If you want to accept God's love and accept eternal life through Jesus Christ.It's simple: Simply ask Jesus to forgive you of all your sins and ask him to enter your heart and turn your life around.Jesus is the best friend you will ever have!
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